Saturday, February 5, 2011

What's My Dream?

This week I was sent an email by a family friend.  It was entitled 45 Lessons Life Taught Me and written by a 90-year old woman named Regina Brett.  While several of the entries struck a cord there was one entry in particular that stayed with me after I read it.  Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.


I try not to have regrets or dwell in the past but when I look back at the last 10 years I realize that is exactly what I have been doing.  I've wondered how I made the mistakes I have and what could I have done to  avoid them.  I think about what I could have done to make my life turn out the way I thought it was supposed to.  I've asked myself why some relationships haven't worked out and why was I alone when I so desperately wanted to share my life with someone.


I know it may sound a bit depressing but I learned a lot about myself during that time.  I never learned how to be myself in a relationship.  I held on to old hurts and old loves.  I've been jealous and insecure.  I learned I have a hard time saying no to things I don't want to do when people I love ask me to do them.  I dislike confrontation.  Most of these are things that I want to change so when I read that entry, everything became clear.  Let go of the past, the hurts, the sorrows but remember the lessons learned from them.  Move on and live the life that makes me happy.  Be secure, learn to say no when it matters, learn to deal with confrontation, and most of BE MYSELF.


At Christmas, I was given a book entitled 2 Do Before I Die by Michael Ogden and Chris Day.  It is a compilation of stories from people about accomplishing lifelong goals whether they be visiting a place never seen before, learning a new skill, or doing something everyone else thinks is foolish.  This is what prompted my own bucket list.


The first 20 things came pretty easily, most were to do with places I wanted to see in the world and a couple of experiences I wanted to have.  I was even able to cross a couple of things off the list.


My list includes: live in a foreign country, take a vacation that doesn't involve visiting someone, write a novel, get published, learn to sing well, find the person I can't live without.


What does your list include?  I'd love to know what you all dream about.  Send me your dreams...


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